4 posts tagged “friends”

i'm almost in a daze of happiness. everything's going pretty well. me and josh are doing better. everything was kinda rocky for a couple days, but we're ok now. and i had some issues with friends that are getting better too. and the best part, i stood up for myself! i cussed out that bitch. she thinks she can tread on me and attept to make my life a living hell, but she can't. i have many ways to succeed in making her life hell, but i don't. but if she doesn't stop, i will. beasley was proud of me for standing up to her. she tried to say that beasley was saying stuff about me, but i knew better than that. beasley is my best buddy through and through. he would never do anything to hurt me. and that's where i drew the line and got in her face. i told bease about it and he was like "yeah!". lol. everything in life was kinda suckish for a while, but it got better when i realized that i've got some pretty amazing people in my life. i've got an amazing boyfriend who would do anything for me [josh], a best buddy who stands up for me and who's always there for me in my time of need [beasley], a best friend who i can talk to, although she covers her ears and does the whole "lalalalala. i can't hear you." thing when i get into the details she doesn't want to hear [mo], and some other amazing friends too. i used to always think i was alone, but i'm not. josh tends to think that he's a loner and he's always been on his own, but when he does that i correct him, i say "no your not, honey, i'm here for you, and i always will be." right now i feel pretty freakin' fantabulous. and i think i like it.

it's thursday... just a little closer to friday! and today's the astronomy field trip, so that rocks! this morning wasn't as fun as normal cuz monica made me walk with her to show her where the planetarium is, and help her avoid alex. lol. alex asked her out last night and she's the type of person that just can't say no. so of course, she wanted to avoid him this morning because she said yes last night and had no idea what to say to him. but i left after i showed her to the planetarium cuz i had to go see josh. i can't go a morning with seeing josh.

holy shit that just scared the crap out of me. a dog walked up to me and started licking my leg. A DOG! in school! i was like "woah! why is there a dog? is it suposed to be here?" and mr. p was like yeah. so i pet the dog til it walked away. it was cute. lol. i didnt think teacher's could bring their dog to school... lol. well... i'm probly gonna take a nap. and hope the dog doesn't lick me again...

so my best friend mo thinks that i was totally going for the "owen" thing with josh. owen from "just listen", that is. he's giantly tall, is never seen without his iPod, can be slightly mysterious, and has an extremely annoying sister. and he's totally against being a jerk. which is awesome. but i never really thought about the owen thing til mo brought it up. it does kinda seem like it. she said there's one part totally missing: he doesn't have anger issues. [thank God!] lol. we have a lot in common, and he's really sweet. he has a nerdy side, but i like that in guys. last night he came in to get pizza cuz he knew i had to work. i put in my discount for him. i was on the phone when he called though, so i didnt get to talk to him. but, lol, when he walked in i smiled at him and stuck out my tongue. he just laughed. i got sick after he left though, cuz i haven't been feeling too well. and i went home early. i talked to him on the phone for a couple hours. he helped me feel better. he's always there when i need him and he helps me to calm down when i'm stressed. i say anything negative about myself and he tells me no. i'm tired, he's okay with my laying my head on him and fall asleep. i seriously think he's my mr. perfect. he's a.m.a.z.i.n.g! when i say sorry for something [normally something stupid and unimportant] he always says "it ok" and if he's there with me, he smiles and sometimes grabs my hand or whatever. he makes me SO happy. yesterday i was kinda bummed cuz i wasn't feeling good, but i was so happy cuz i had been talking to him via text message and he was talking sweet like he sometimes does, and mo called me and beasley was im-ing me, and they were both really bummed about something or other that wasn't going well, and a few of my other friends were also freaked out cuz they think they're pregnant. i was feeling bad b/c everything was going well for me, and bad for them. when things go bad for a person i care about, i almost can't stand it. it just hurts so much for me to see suffering and pain. then i told him about how it was bugging me and he called me once i got off the phone with mo. and i was just kinda depressed and started crying and i was like "you understand how i feel?" and he was like "yes. i feel that way right now, cuz it hurts me to see you hurt like this." and i was like awww, that's so cute! and i cheered up almost immediatly. i was like "you're so sweet. i'm glad you're here for me." he's just so awesome. i was hanging out with him this morning too. i was really tired and still not feeling good, so after a while i fell asleep with my head on his leg. [he was in his desk in study hall, i was sitting on the floor next to him]. i still can't figure out why, but that boy is just so special to me. he helps me so much and he just cares so much. :] i've been thinking since it's not that far off, about what to get him for a graduation present. right after grad, he's going to cali for his internship. so i won't see him this summer. i don't know what to get for him. i'm thinking about drawing or painting something for him. or getting him a new iPod since his old one broke. haha. but not til i get a new one for myself cuz i don't even have one yet. lol. well, it's almost time for the lunch bell to ring, and that's good cuz i'm hungry. adios, y'all.

MANDA.

p.s. it would be great if i got some comments cuz it feels like i'm writing to empty space sometimes... THANKS!

this week is going by SO fast! awesomely. :]

tomorrow is a half day, and josh is coming over to my house.

i am about to fail astronomy so he's helping me.

and i wanted to spend time with him anyways,

so that works. :]

it's been a really good week so far.

monday was slow, but a good day, nonetheless.

tuesday pretty much sucked.

now it's wednesday. and it started out good!

i spent time with josh before class started

and jess saw me walking with josh and gave me the "scandalous" look.

lmao. well, time to go! nap time in study hall! :]]

mandaryn.