so i had the most amazing weekend! friday, i felt like shit, but went to church with josh anyways. him and his mom were getting along better, which was good. after church we went out to dinner at applebee's. i wasn't feeling well at all at that point, and i was freezing, so josh held me for a while to try to help me feel better. when we left, josh sat in the backseat with me, still holding me. and then he kissed me. but like a minute later, i threw up, out the window. well, mostly out the window, partly on josh, which i felt bad about. but he helped me wipe up the puke, gave me a peice of gum, and kept kissing me. lol.
saturday morning, i woke up early with a really bad headache. once mom left for work, i got on the comp and im'ed josh. i told him that i was sorry about throwing up, and that he's a really good kisser, so my throwing up has nothing to do with the quality of his kissing. lol. and i told him that he was my first kiss. he told me not to be sorry, and that everything's ok as long as i'm feeling better, and that i was his first kiss too. and then he told me that he loves me. it was all pretty much a very mushy "aww" moment. later that afternoon, i went over to his house. we made out in his bed for about an hour and a half, which was really amazing. i told him about my abstinence values, and he said he respects that.
sunday was easter, and i went to church with josh. we held hands during the service, and he almost fell asleep. (which is really saying something since he's a severe insomniac! lol.) he wanted me to go to his grandma's with him after church, but my mom wouldn't let me, so i went home, and fell asleep for about 2 hours. when i woke up, i talked to him on the phone for a while, and then got off the phone to watch tv with my parents. a couple hours later, the phone rang again, and it was him. he said "i'm at your front door. i have a present for you." so i told him, hold on, i'll be there in a minute. i told my mom and she pointed out that i was still wearing my pj's, so i went to go change really quickly. when i answered the door, he was standing there with a single red rose. i went to hug him, but my dog, sandy, got to him first. lol. sandy normally hates guys, especially tall guys, and josh is 6'3", so you'd think she'd hate him too, but sandy absolutely loves josh. so we had to try to get sandy to calm down and lock her in her "room" (the laundry room). he handed me the rose, and i hugged him. he wanted to see if my mom would let him stay for a little while, but she was in a bad mood, so he had to leave. so i stepped outside with him and shut the door. i told him thank you. and we kissed for a few minutes. it was really sweet. i really do love him.
]]>i'm so tired, i'm coming down with some sort of cold, and i have a headache from hell. josh wasn't doing too well this morning either. he got in a fight with his mom, so she won't take him to church tonight, so i'll prolly give him a ride to church. monica's having parent issues too. everything's pretty depressing around me right now. damn my head hurts... i'm about to go up to the science office and take a nap. i feel like shit. tonite's good friday, which will be depressing church. my family pretty much canceled easter dinner cuz grandma got her teeth pulled. lol. redneck family. well, i'm gonna get outta here and go to sleep. adios, y'all.
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