falling up.

right now i'm at an extreme point of happiness. everything is almost almost perfect. it doesn't have to be entirely perfect, just almost. and it's almost there. ya follow? lol. my grades are better than ever. 2 B's, 2 A's, 1 C, 1 D. i just need to get those last two up a bit and keep them that way and i'm home free. then i'll have the rest of my life back. currently, i've just got work, school, and sometimes i get to spend time with josh. the parts i'm missing are church, friends, and the rest of my time with josh. speaking of josh, our relationship is great. i really do love that boy. today's a half day at school, so we're gonna spend the afternoon hanging out at my house. shall be fun! :] this just feels almost foreign, this happiness. i love it, but it's just not something i'm used to. i'm used to being pushed around, crowded out, and lost in a sea of depression. i'm sure my psych would say my prozac is kicking in, but no, that's not it. it wouldn't just start working randomly after two years of ineffective use. this is just life going well. :]